Cheat Sheet to Acheive your Desires

 Manifesting seems to fall into one of the two categories. 

1.  Totally woohoo , where you imagine, visualize without knowing exactly how it all works
2. Working harder and harder on something until it succeeds. 

But manifesting or achieving your desires is actually a science, an exact science which we can use. 

1. Understand that beliefs create your reality.  Rhonda Byrnes "Everything is possible" youtube video made it super clear for me. Our actions are determined by our subconscious beliefs and changing them can change our reality. That's why knowing something doesnt mean you will do it (For example, you know you have to eat healthy to lose weight, but you might find it hard to do it long term due to past habits ruled by subconscious mind) 
2. Let go of negativity and negative emotions. Our life is like a flowing river and negative emotions are like clutter. Most of the time we resist any negative emotions creating more and more clutter. Instead welcome any negative emotion that you might feel. The more and more you accept your negative emotions and let go of the clutter, the more you realize your own power. 
3. Understand your desires. Is your desire impersonal or personal? The video by Rupert Spira explains this in more detail. In short, if your desire is arising from lack then you have to go back to step #2. Your desire should arise from happiness and contentment and it is much easier to have those desired fulfilled. 
4. Understand what beliefs are stopping you from achieving those desires.  Subconscious beliefs can be changed through affirmations, visualizations, repetition , EFT and many other  techniques. Remove and replace the negative belief with a positive one. 
5. Get happy. Be joyful. Use Abraham Hicks videos to first tune into joy before taking any inspired action.  Imagine that whatever you are seeking is already yours. Feel as if you already have it.
6. Take as much inspired action as possible.  Actions that you need to take will come as thoughts to you rather than you slogging around mindlessly.
7. Surrender and let go. You have done your best now, it is the universe turn to fulfill your desire. 

If you would like to work with me to achieve any specific goal you have, email me at sarawins@gmail.com

The Real Saranya

 When I was in my early teens, I would read Linda Goodman and the various sun signs. The Gemini woman was described as someone who had a different personality around different people. I took that to heart to understand why I was so different to different people. 

As I grew older I did have more courage to reveal my true self to everybody else. The joy of being your own authentic self no matter you are accepted or rejected is something else altogether. As part of revealing who I truly am I started my YouTube channel. For a long time I was embarrassed to admit the movie buff I was. But then , I thought why shouldn't I embrace this part of me? Then I started writing my thoughts as poems. These efforts gave me a sense of joy .

There is still a lot of hurdle to reveal my truth, my true self. The fear that I may hurt some loved ones since it might impact them in some way. But I am sick and tired of putting up a mask. People who will reject me once they know the real me should reject me. Because I dont think I have any energy left in me to do the pretending game. To pretend that I like someone when they pretend they like me. 

Sometimes I feel that my intellectual age is 5 years since I can very deeply connect to my son. And it truly baffles me how most people on this earth parent their kids.  It is almost as if trying to erase every bit of genius that they are born with to make them into something as part of herd. The whole effort seems to be around getting them accepted by everybody else. Or to make them as messed up as the society has managed to make us.

I differ in my parenting philosophies even with my son's dad. At one point he even joked that I was considering the feelings of a five year old in my decision making. But why cant we consider his feelings? Are our children merely puppets in our hands to act and do in the way we see fit? Aren't they life just as we are. Maybe the only difference between us and them is the fact that we have lived in this earth longer enough. But that doesn't make them any lesser than us. 

Babies never eat more than required, never sleep more than required and are absolutely tuned into their environment, their bodies and the life energy. The overall societal brainwashing somehow  eradicates all these god given gifts to make them like us. What a great achievement that is!

 

New Year - 2019

It is a new year again. Years seem to be racing too fast, one after the other. With that, things around me are changing as well. This year was good in that it really helped me to understand what my true passion is. It had to go through a journey, but it still resulted in some progress.

I did make some mistake in 2018 though. One was constantly listening to all the advise around me. I think I also kind of gave up on my dreams and started to become practical.

But this year, I intend to tune into the source energy.  To see what dream the creator has for me and try to put in my best effort to achieve it.  It isn't like the other things in which I did not know how I would achieve success. Rather, this feels like I am definitely bound to be succesful in this.

It is something that I really enjoy doing and what others like to consume as well.

So here is to a great 2019!!! To listen to yourself and dream on.

Let it Flow

There is something very deep in my heart

That wants to come out

But there are boundaries

And walls built around it

It seems so pure

It seems almost god-like

But it is not allowed to flow

I don’t know if I can keep it within me

They say the consequences can be very bad

Kill it

Suppress it

Focus on something else

But there is no other option but to let it flow

And see what happens…

God

Strip away your concern of what others might think
Then strip away your anxieties of tomorrow
Slowly but steadily strip away your regrets of yesterday
The pain you caused to others
And the pain others caused you
Let go of all your efforts that never materialized
Then let go of your guilt of the efforts that you didn’t put forth wholeheartedly
When you go deeper and deeper like this
You will find JOY
And beneath Joy, you will find LOVE

Life

Your life does not matter to anyone
Nor does it matter to you
Why not do something fun with it?
Your life does not matter to you
Yet, it is the most precious and only thing that you have
Why not do only what you want to do with it
You are here for a short while
And walking closer to death everyday
So why not try something new
You may not like it
Nor would it benefit anyone
But you would have marveled
You would have rejoiced
You would have loved
If only you knew that life does not matter to anyone or you
Yet, it is the most precious thing you have

Adult Love

Young love comes like a storm
It shatters the body and soul
Unites two people pinging and longing for each other
When hearts are broken
Pain and agony ensues
Leaving the heart closed for a while
Adult love comes like a slight breeze blowing by your window
It gently brushes the cheeks and illuminates the soul
It does not break your heart
But creates a wise mind that can learn from love

Treasures and God

You put so much treasure inside me
And also created this urge to share it with the world
You also created so many obstacles and failures for it to materialize
What game are you playing?
Would it be fun if instantly the treasures came out and the world loved it?
The real treasure is the person you become as you unearth these treasures and overcome obstacles
Then you will have lived a more interesting life
A life worthy of living over and over again through several incarnations

Goodbye Love

Love often is an invited guest
But a welcome guest
It comes unannounced
To transform us
Create something magnificent from the ruins within us
As it comes unannounced
It goes unannounced
There is no way to persuade it to stay longer
To convince saying, I need more transformation
When love decides to leave,
There is nothing much to do
But smilingly say goodbye
Waiting for the next time it comes again unannounced
Much more Beautiful
Much more deeper

Live your life

You yell at me

You blame me for all your miseries and misfortunes

But you have no power over me

You are just a man with no self esteem or backbone

Whatever little fortune you have in your life is because of me

If you really want to change your life

Leave me and go and see if your tendencies will change

We will all be better for it.

But you cannot curtail me

You cannot kill my spirit

I will live my life the way I want to

I provide for myself and don’t need you in the slightest bit to do that for me

I make my own decisions

And I live my life the way I want to

Simple Love

You think you need to do great things to get me
Create a great orchestra
Create an electrifying painting


If only you knew
That a beautiful sound is enough
Enough for me to even love a cigarette flake


A great cup of coffee
Can set my heart on fire


Just say I am beautiful
And I am yours
Show me that I am desired
And I will dedicate my entire life to you

Lost Love

A love came my way

Unadulterated and pure

It seemed very shallow

As I walked with him on the street

He always held my hand

And wanted to kiss me

I let that love go by

Thinking that many other love are coming my way

Lots of love came my way

But I still think of that night

That walk

Holding of hands

And the kiss that never materialized.

One Sided Love

Dressed as a bride
As beautiful as a moon on a bright blue sky
She stood and smiled at me


I yearned to go near her
To touch her
I yearned for her to desire me

Maybe all I needed was for her to love me
So I could forget her

How futile is this love?
Love for a woman who loves someone else

A love that has no present or future
But searches for that moment where two souls can merge to become one

Myself

Is it the magnetism of my eyes

Magnified by the gentle  eyelids that flutter like the wings of a swan

Or is it my electric smile

Powerful enough to energize a dull room

What is it that you love about me?

Is it my skin soft as butter?

Translucent like tender pieces of coconut

That drives you wild?

Is it my long slender fingers that fit together most perfectly to my palm

Making it the world’s most beautiful creation of touch

The touch that sends a shiver around your body

And also a constant yearning to be near me

Or is it my voluptuous body with its share of imperfections

Is it the scent of my body mixed with the perfume creating a maddening fragrance of intoxication?

Or is it after all my heart?

Childlike and naïve, ready to believe anything

Ready to love you with all my being

Love Happens

What is the exact moment
When love happened?
The pure unadulterated love
Did happen when my eyes met yours
Or when your heart understood mine

Not Mine

The face is mine
But the expressions are not

The voice is  mine
But the words are not

The Hands are mine
But the touch is not

The Heart is mine
But the love isn't

Obsessive Love

I am embarrassed by my love for you

Trying to hide it  from everyone and everything

I try to replace my desire for you with a desire for a million dollars

I make a few hundred thousand

and return to you

Which hole in me do you fill so well?

That my being feels so empty without your thought

I see a different me in your presence

someone who feels like she is really is me

I understood who I really was

How full of love

How futile is this love?

A love that has no future

or Present

but that which just lives in the memories of that one day

and one night

A night and day which never can repeat itself

Beauty

My face, my smile and my body
Seem so beautiful to you
And you want to be near it
And experience it


Try my soul, my mind and my feelings
They are so vast, enigmatic and not so transient
You will experience beauty and its true essence

Making a movie?

Recently I submitted a concept for a movie on a contest for debut female director. I don't know why I did that. But that contest poster appeared as a sign to me. It had become oversized and stood before me asking me to pay heed to it.

So I compiled some of the stories and writing I had done over the years and submitted it.  I had no hopes, but I was selected and called for a workshop. I did spend an inordinate amount of money to come to India for this workshop, but my life had become so dull that I could not miss doing this.

Coming to this workshop opened up a whole new world to me. First of all it was so much fun to learn how to create art. I have always wanted to be a writer, but my literary talents are not great. Maybe movies are the way I express myself.  I do love movies and spent hours analyzing why I like what I like.

So this world of cinema had a bunch of people who are so passionate, who love making art so much. They are living with needs that are bare minimum.  It made me wonder, how much we have complicated survival. With wanting to eat so many different kinds of food day in and day out to keep us entertained so that we can do a job we do not like.

The alternative to that is to live a life of passion and spend very little on survival. But most of us have this totally upside down.  Needless to say, I enjoyed three days in this zone thinking about art, watching art and reflecting deep within myself what I needed to communicate to this world. What is that space within me which I feel uncomfortable to get into.

I have never been afraid to step out of my comfort zone, maybe finally that will come useful in this field. 

Our passion finally finds us.

I fly back to USA in a day. I feel more nervous than ever since I am flying back with Sid alone. It is exciting yet unnerving. I look out of the window and see cars, bikes and every automobile on the road. It gives me a sense of stability and peace. Yesterday I was driving by the O2 gym and I experienced a twinge in my heart.  I think what I will miss most are the dance classes. Maybe I am making too much of it, but they were the most enjoyable times of my life.

I had two conversations here with two people along the same lines. It led me wonder about myself. I thought business was my passion. But my desire for business came along only when I started having desire for money. Then is that a real passion. I would write for hours even when I knew I would get no reward for it. I can dance for hours by paying someone else. I can drink chai like there is no end to the world. Then these are my real passions. Is it?

It is interesting that I have worked on these passions without my knowledge. Every song I watch, I subconsciously pick up steps to dance on. Add to this all my zumba and various dance classes (bollywood dance) All the movies and books I read, i keep picking up ways to write better. Not to mention all the writing workshops I go to. And chai, my hunt for chai never stops.

So my entrepreneur friend was telling stories of how he started doing business while he was way younger.  How he had stickers that he sold to other kids by hiding in his socks and he was compared to a smuggler in those times. My dad's friend who is a writer now narrated a story about he wrote stories in papers and binded it together using a safety pin and how friend drew pictures in that book. We all have stories about this. Our passion always stays with us. We are just not aware of it.