Making a movie?

Recently I submitted a concept for a movie on a contest for debut female director. I don't know why I did that. But that contest poster appeared as a sign to me. It had become oversized and stood before me asking me to pay heed to it.

So I compiled some of the stories and writing I had done over the years and submitted it.  I had no hopes, but I was selected and called for a workshop. I did spend an inordinate amount of money to come to India for this workshop, but my life had become so dull that I could not miss doing this.

Coming to this workshop opened up a whole new world to me. First of all it was so much fun to learn how to create art. I have always wanted to be a writer, but my literary talents are not great. Maybe movies are the way I express myself.  I do love movies and spent hours analyzing why I like what I like.

So this world of cinema had a bunch of people who are so passionate, who love making art so much. They are living with needs that are bare minimum.  It made me wonder, how much we have complicated survival. With wanting to eat so many different kinds of food day in and day out to keep us entertained so that we can do a job we do not like.

The alternative to that is to live a life of passion and spend very little on survival. But most of us have this totally upside down.  Needless to say, I enjoyed three days in this zone thinking about art, watching art and reflecting deep within myself what I needed to communicate to this world. What is that space within me which I feel uncomfortable to get into.

I have never been afraid to step out of my comfort zone, maybe finally that will come useful in this field.